Not a poem, an exception to the rule..
It never comes from crumbling of external structures, those have already collapsed.. and what does it have to do with our individual life stories.. absolutely nothing, just pointers on the way.. It comes from a total assault from within, total collapse. Not even collapse of beliefs, ideas, world view… a long road to the collapse of the Psyche.
Ever asked what the fear is all about?? Fear of own meaningless existence. THE FUTILITY of it all… An honest look at reality of being.. and all else you hear – are shameless fairytales. Believe nothing. If Divine Discontent is not part of your intrinsic makeup, life circumstance will take you to that point and demolish all illusions in the process…. as you know.
Your existential questions – will disappear. Your existing reasons for living – will vanish in an instant. Your desire to ‘become’ – will evaporate. ‘Soul’ or ‘God’ will not resonate. Relationships, families, children, aspirations.. ridiculous programming of Enlightenment, with chants of peace, or warm and fuzzy sensations of all encompassing love, or wanting to be ‘a better person’, or liberation from suffering.. Make-believe of a permanent halo.. Wake up, people, it has nothing to do with Awakening.
…not many understand what self love TRULY means.. what it IS… what is it like to be YOU? Close your eyes and feel it. Sense for you. Think for you. Feel for you. Perceive for you. Who. You. Are. Every answer you come up with – will require a definition, lie upon lie.. insignificant, Samaritan, stubborn, man, paryah, intelligent, initiated, woman, curious.. all lies, a currency of convenient identities in this world of perpetual survival struggle. Groups live, individuals – perish. So hurdle all together into a dream..
And it will just dawn on you, nothing like you imagined it would be, no Big Bang, no rainbow colours.. so quiet in the way it happens, like nothing happened, and everything did. The elementary Truth of your Being. There is – No Self, NEVER HAS BEEN. There is NOTHING to look for!!! All meanings are earthly fear expressions wanting to combat Futility.
Faith cannot come from blind deceitful illusion, perpetuated through countless institutions of human thought and power. Most ‘liberated minds’ and ‘spiritualised egos’ wouldn’t go there, they break the fall into the pit and get stuck on the first rung.. still ‘searching’ for Unicorns in every conceivable philosophy, blind fools.. or may be it’s best not to know, huh.. the mere simplicity of it makes it obscure and hidden – hidden in full view. I’ve known this truth my entire life, never consciously accepting it, running away in terror. There are levels of reality, and at this human mortal level – I probably will have to ask the dog for wisdom, it has more of it than an entire human population. Doesn’t take itself (Self!!!!, it’s hillarious!) seriously.
Take any word of importance to you… dictionary ‘definition’ is just the start. Levels of MEANING will be as deep as you want to go… drop into each one of them, with your entire feeling, breathing being. Do it with each one of those ‘words’, they are only representations of Mind. Then – CONNECT all those, the truth will JUMP at you, punch you in the face… and the whole picture will emerge. Building back up again from the point of unflinching, raw, bleeding truth is liberation. And another story.
Go on, the truth is there for the taking. Just that… be careful what you ask for. It may be much more comfortable in the pain of the world as we’ve known it.