The power of own insight is overwhelming. Everything can be seen clearly ONLY when it was something that came directly from – self. I never knew about Plato’s analogy with the cave, but came to that through own gut wrenching, blood and tears search of the two years before the Big Bang.
It was really simple. Do you know this saying ‘Wherever I go – here I am’?… This has always been my understanding, but in those two years there came a moment when it struck me with absolute Clarity that I am ‘face to face’ with own Mind, and if I didn’t do something about it – I would be stapled to this Mind for the rest of my life. Me – against own Consciousness. The thought was absolutely petrifying. A possible scenario of being stuck in the head forever meant a search for the rest of my remaining years here on Earth, and I DIDN’T WANT THAT. I didn’t want that with passion, with the conviction of a madman who at that one singular moment gains the tunnel vision to get out of it no matter what. At any cost.
But I didn’t read many books. When people ask Jed about Spiritual Autolysis, how to ‘do’ it, I feel puzzled. Spiritual Autolysis is a fancy word for a simple process of asking Self questions. Note, I didn’t say ‘asking others’. I said – Self. Burying one’s nose in someone else’s book will take you nowhere, except to more books, more minds of other humans, and what do they have to do with YOUR reality?
This is how I came to Plato’s analogy of the cave without having never heard about it before. Mine was the cave of the Mind; I felt suffocated in it, but knew, SAW there is a way out, just need to keep going, to keep asking self and to keep listening to the answers which come FROM WITHIN.
And I grabbed any topic my mind turned to. What is this fucking kundalini? Who was U.G. Krishnamurti? Why do we have three major religions/philosophies? What is this talk about Akashic Records? Where is Auroville and what the hell is that? What about that Tibetan Book of the Dead? What is The Third Eye? On and on and on and on.
THIS is where neti neti comes in, and again, I had no idea at the time what it was. But every time I looked at any of the above subjects, or any other things I felt drawn to… my INNER SENSE told me after a while – BULLSHIT! Not it! This is NOT TRUE! How can humans believe in this nonsense? What the hell is wrong with us??.. And I kept going, not it, not it, not true, not true, guided only by self, nothing else.
What happens as a result? One gets to own every insight, every little movement within. One comes up with Plato’s cave analogy WITHOUT reading Plato. One suddenly writes ‘If I doubt own existence, it means I exist’ WITHOUT Descartes. One begins to laugh at millenia old human tales, first tentatively and then out loud, and my God, how hilarious it was to suddenly find myself in the company of great philosophers and sages and see exactly what they saw and realise that I OWN every one of those realisations without ever having touched their books.
And then… the world explodes, and all falls into place.
So.. go and read the books. Be a good ‘student’. Highlight every bloody passage written by someone else and try to figure out its meaning. That will keep you firmly in the grip of another’s Mind for years to come.
OR. Simply ask – yourself. Ask yourself about anything and everything that catches your interest in the field of ‘spirituality’. Kenneth (Jed) went through EXACTLY the same process – from looking at fucking demons and angels and the third eye to the bare, surgically sterile space. He once asked dumb newbie questions of those who were further down the line. He never accepted answers, other than his own and neither did I.
It feels… clean. Clean and clear.
Note: Photo courtesy of a Reddit reader of Jed’s books.