The result of Jeddism is destruction of ability to think and question, but not in the way it should have been destroyed. Most of you have been fooled into willfully parting with the one and only tool that sets you apart from other animals: your Mind. You gave your Mind to another and let it be manipulated and sculptured into what was not yours to begin with.
‘Nothing matters’ does not mean passive acceptance.
‘Do not care’ does not mean lack of involvement.
‘No Self’ does not mean a physical absence of you.
‘No others’ does not mean a physical absence of other humans.
‘Disappearance of the world’ does not mean annihilation of the world out there.
‘Gaining the universe’ does not mean obtaining God-like power.
Stop taking these statements literally, for they are nothing but concepts, mere shadows of a personal subjective experience that is impossible to translate into words. Everything, absolutely everything is SUBJECTIVE in this world. How can one translate what a smile of a child makes them feel? What your personal toothache is like, can you put it into words that make it accessible to another? What one sees when observing the sunlight piercing a leaf? What it feels like when the loved one is dying and there is nothing you can do in the face of inevitability?
No human has ever left their humanness behind, and if you met someone who has none – it means they simply didn’t have much to start with. As Kenneth asserts in Module 4 of his Navigator Series:
“I’ve written before that if you were a jerk pre-T/R you will still be a jerk post T/R. In fact, you may even become a bigger jerk”.
This is certainly correct from my experience.
What I am writing here are also words and, thus, have no power. What these words describe – has not been lived by you and so has no meaning to you, is locked out of your conscious awareness. This is why I wanted to show the facts. Facts have the power to enlighten and clarify. The facts here have burst quite a few bubbles. Feelings (not emotions! they are not the same!) have the power to guide and point to the direction in which one needs to go. Words have the power to bewitch and mystify, to shroud Reality in fog.
Reality never needed and doesn’t need words. Reality = Truth, and Truth = Reality. There is no two, there is One. The one Reality and Truth you are living.
I know what some of you are feeling after having read the EM. You are feeling gutted. For me the process of unravelling Jed’s story was taking place in the course of 2.5 years; it was not sudden and so hasn’t packed the punch. You have come across this and absorbed a large quantity of Reality in a very short space of time. It probably hurts.
You will get over it and will become wiser as a result.
In my poem writing days I once wrote this below. I doubt I will ever produce another poetic expression. And I doubt I will ever speak again, once this story is completed.
What do I feel?
What if feelings and words don’t go together?
Words are invisible droplets of sound,
A torrent of noisy muteness hitting the ground.
Nothingness of declarations
Love and hate, empty exchanges leading nowhere…
Words, failing the story of body and mind ache..
Words, words, words… the biggest mistake
Of humanity; spitfire roasted emotions
Expressed as a sound wave in all its absurdity…
Do I not know another language of feeling?
My arms holding you in silence and meaning..
Do you feel my eyes
Speaking to you? A throbbing sound of soul,
So enchantingly naked, this true conversation…
What words can replace a sense of elation
When you smile at me?
The language of this Universe in the wind..
In the gentle caress of your hand.. in a kiss of a child…
Words fail the feelings… words, the feeble construct of the Mind.
Pink Floyd, who recorded the process of waking up in minute detail, said this:
‘For millions of years mankind lived just like the animals
Then something happened which unleashed the power of our imagination
We learned to talk’
Correct. The song below was deliberately made into a neurotic, jiggered cacophony of sounds. This is the sound of Humanity when it opens its collective mouth and attempts to give the world, this Reality – a description, talking about it instead of being it.