Someone asked me this:
“And then you said something very striking to do with T.R. being Chance. Well and furthermore that enlightenment doesn’t even exist, but one thing at a time. Can you tell me a little more about your understanding of how “T.R.” lands on humans? And how advisable is it for us humans to even look for it from your perspective?
The next question is any thoughts on Bernadette Roberts’ work or state?”
How does TR land on humans… the short answer is ‘I don’t know’. I have no idea how it landed on me, except to say that I was intensely (INTENSELY) driven to see what was real. That’s all it took, and it took under two years. The inherent independence and a critical turn of my mind helped not to fall into the numerous rabbit holes.
Spiritual game players call it ‘grace’. The word ‘grace’ has an emotional ring to it, a vague call to the specialness and the chosen status of the one whose mind suddenly penetrated Reality and saw it for what it is. I also used to call it as such until I realised there is a simpler, more honest answer that bears no mystical signature: chance occurrence.
Chancing upon Realisation only applies to that one moment of the expansive and irreversible shift within one’s conscious awareness. THAT was chance, and humans have different words for it. Mine is the ‘Big Bang’, but it is just some name for the final mind opening. Can be given any other name, makes no difference.
However, the preceding was no chance. It was stumbling on to question upon question, going through all of what the supposed spiritual movement of generations presents to ‘seekers’ and answering each and one of those questions with own resources: own thinking, own intuitive perceptive feeling, own knowledge of facts, own disbelief in any answers supplied by an outside authority. This is the true process of self inquiry.. or spiritual autolysis.. or the Work… whatever the name given – the process is always the same: ‘is that true’… what is fed to me and others.. IS THAT TRUE? Look, evaluate, see it, feel it… is any of it TRUE?
Intellectually bent minds take the process name (whatever name appeals to them) and turn it into a ritual. To turn this into a ritual they run to the one who came up with the name (Jed, Katie, Ramana, Alan… doesn’t matter) and ask stupid questions such as ‘How do I do this? (insert the proprietory process name here)’. How to do what? How to ask oneself questions? Is that so hard that suddently it requires a second person to teach you how to ask questions and look for answers?
I thought many times ‘WTF?! Humans turn everything into a Sabbat, a worshipful event, with the invented seriousness, but a complete lack of inner sincerity at application.’
I can tell you this… most ‘seekers’ are great liars. They lie to themselves (and to others by extension) every waking moment of their seeking. Why do I say that? Because if the sincere intent is present – no one would spend their entire life looking for something which is walking right beside you every day. It is IMPOSSIBLE not to see IF one is focused and honest in their endeavour.
Is it advisable you ask… No. You will find nothing at the end of it all. There was and is nothing to find. I have to correct our boy ‘Jed’ here: true TR is not as rare as he surmised, but remaining true to Realness of own being – IS very rare. A good portion of people at SAND, for instance, are TR. However… they play the ‘spiritual’ Game and, thus, lie.
I don’t know anything about Bernadette Roberts, apart from the name. The normal rules of spiritual engagement didn’t apply in my case. I hardly read any ‘spiritual’ books and pursued no enlightenment or any other associated activity prior.
And I don’t do so now. It had been over long before it began.